"If you love her so much then why are you here with me," Sasha spat in a venomous tone tired of the back and fourth game Troy was playing. Sasha and troy had been together for three years. At first she had no idea he was still in a relationship. When they first met he told her he was in the midst of a breakup and he and his ex were just living together until they each found their own places. The truth didn't come to light until a year later when Sasha received a phone call from an angry Janay. Janay not only confronted her about her relationship with Troy but let it be known their relationship was far from over and was never on the brinks of ending. Sasha was furious and sat in disbelief. She had been lied to and forced into being a side chick. Now here she sat in love with a man who although he hadn't been honest, treated her like she was the only woman on earth that mattered. She confronted Troy about it and broke things off with him. But he wore her down with the flowers, gifts, phone calls and all the things a man does to win back a woman. While her head was telling her not to give in, her heart was too deep in it and she eventually got back together with him. She tried to justify it as SHE was making the choice this time to still be with him and while that meant having to play number two, she would have the man she loved still. Now here he sat in her face telling her it was over and how he wanted to be with Janay and their time together was over. She knew part of this was her fault and she should've left him alone then. Now she was the one with egg on her face looking like the fool she felt.
"I can't keep doing this anymore. It was a mistake to start this with you in the first place. I've always loved her. I love you too but Janay is who I want," Troy replied as guilt began to creep through his body.
"This was a mistake? Is that what you're going to try to hide behind? Well guess what Troy, you don't keep making the same mistake for three years. I guess you accidentally fought to keep me in your life every time I wanted to leave. And I guess you tripped and fell in the pussy everytime we fucked too huh," Sasha snapped as pain swirled in her veins bringing tears to her eyes.
"Sasha I've been holding this in for a while now. I just didn't know how to end this without hurting you and I didn't want to see that look on your face you have right now. I didn't want to see you cry anymore because of me . I'm sorry Sasha I hope you understand."
"That's bullshit Troy and you know it. It took you all this time to figure out you are so in love with Janay. And what, you basically stayed with me all this time out of pity? Is that what you're saying because that's what it sounds like. You know what I don't need your pity and I don't need you fuck you Troy !" Sasha's words hit him hard as he sat at the edge of the bed disappointed in himself. His guilt now becoming a lump in his throats making it hard for him to breathe. Sasha, no longer able to fight back her heartbreak rolled over on her side turning her back to Troy as the tears she was fighting finally began to fall. The sound of her sobbing stabbed Troy's heart like a thousand tiny knives all at once.
"I'm so sorry Sasha. I'm sorry I lied to you in the beginning. I'm sorry for every time I hurt you and left you lonely. I'm sorry for everything." Troy placed his hand on Sasha's back to try to console her but Sasha flinched and moved away from his touch. She was broken and wanted this moment to be over. She felt as if she had died a thousand deaths in a matter of seconds.
"Why don't you just leave Troy. Don't call me, don't text me, don't come by here, don't anything. Just GET OUT! Leave me alone and go be with that bitch," she spat jumping up from the bed and grabbing her robe off the back of her bedroom door. "Get up and GET THE FUCK OUT! GET OUT OF MY HOUSE TROY! NOW!" Tears flowed down Sasha's rage engulfed face effortlessly as she stood impatiently waiting for him to gather his stuff to leave.
Troy did as she demanded and gathered his things without saying another word. Once he had all his belongings Sasha angrily guided him to the front door. Her heart kept screaming for her to stop and fight for him to stay, promise to do whatever it would take to keep him in her life, but this time her mind won the battle. She wasn't going to belittle herself any more than she already had by begging him to stay. If he wants to go he could go she said to herself knowing she deserved so much better than this. Sasha flung open the front door and folded her arms over her chest. She demanded he give her her keys putting her hand out as he slipped the keys off his ring and gave them to her. As Troy stepped out the front door Sasha slammed it on him causing the door to hit him in his back. As he walked to his car he could hear Sasha yelling into the air questioning why followed by her cursing him out. Troy got in his car and sat there for a moment as the reality of this being his last time in her driveway sunk in. The sound of her heart being broken by him echoed into the quiet night air and into his heart making him further feel like shit. . Troy started his car and turned the radio off. He needed to drive home in silence to gather his thoughts. As he backed out the driveway he looked up and saw Sasha staring out at him before yanking her curtains closed. He took a deep breath, "Goodbye Sasha. I hope you find it in your heart to forgive me one day," he whispered to himself as he pulled off heading home to Janay.
